River

River

Emma Dorsey 2018

Trickling, down one drop at a time,

Washing away the things of old,

Making way for new things to unfold.

Turning, churning every step of the way,

Reeling from side to side with the tide

Giving way to exciting ride.

Molding, shaping all things that gets in its way.

Rocks turn to pebbles and grit.

Green algae grows near places that sit.

Rolling down straight to the sea,

Giving breath of life for all to see.

River wash away my fears and pain,

To give my life a chance to regain.

Beginning Prep

     After a crazy bout of very cold temperatures and snow we have a day or so of warmer weather to enjoy. I have had cabin fever for too long now and just had to take advantage of the day. I went for a walk on the back part of the property to see how many trees and branches had fallen during the past weeks. We planted a few bamboo plants out on the far side and one has survived how cool is that. My neighbors dogs have dug under the fence close by or it might not have even been noticed. We can collect many fallen branches to add to the pile of firewood. Walked down to the old barn where all my glass doors are being stored. The weather has taken a toll on the already dilapidated structure. There have been a few trees come down on it in the past. We are going to start moving things out soon and tear it completely down. It wasn’t that long ago we put up a new roof on it and the 20foot 2x4s are still in great shape to reuse. 

     I know I said I was not going to open up my house plans again till we started working on it again but see that it is getting warmer we may be able to get in a few windows out in the front of the house. I also had to make a few changes due to the lowness of the one end of the house where the girl’s room and dad’s office will be. I originally thought we would be able to add a bath in the girl's room but dad said not a chance. Now the dining room has moved to the other side of the kitchen and the bath will be beside the living room in the front of the house. This also left me with enough room for a laundry area without taking up space in my master bath. I have also figured out the space for or closet we are tearing out.

     We will have 6 glass doors left over and I have decide to close in my back deck to make a sun room for all my plants. This will be great for the winter months when all the plants come in so I won’t have them in every room in the house. I am so looking forward to getting started again on this old house project. 

Many of my plants among the lumber in my living room.

Little bamboo

Daffies

     My chickens in one pen have built two large nest with about 20 eggs a piece in them I just hope they have kept them warm enough to hatch out some babies. My chickens in the other which are only a trio have laid eggs also. The pigs are all doing well despite all the rain and snow we have had. We have put a lot of hay in the pens just to keep the mud from taking over too much. Getting ready to plan the garden area this year too. It is that time already. I am going to garden this year for sure. We back flushed the pool today and add clean water to it to maintain it over the winter months. I don’t have to worry about old black water this spring with our new cover.  My daffodils are coming up too.So much to do and spring is just around the corner..

Heading into 2018

My Office

     I didn’t write an exit for the last year because I felt that it had been one of many pains. Many plans were made and very few were ever accomplished. That being said I want to start out this year in a whole new way of doing things. This year I want to try and be spontaneous, without plans, then I can say that things great were accomplished when they do happen. Plans for me seemed to have eaten away much of my happiness. I drove myself crazy planning the plans for our house and who knows what will ever come of that. I am not going to open that plan again to make changes they are set in stone and it is what it is. Family plans also have been futile.

     This year I want to work on more important things such as the fruitages of the spirit; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, mildness, and yes self-control. There is much I am lacking in all of these things and I need to improve on all of them. Putting my mind on more spiritual things can only make my life better as I grow closer to my heavenly Father Jehovah. I know I have tried to do things on my own and have failed to leave my anxieties in His hands and it have added to many stresses in my life. I have to believe and have faith that all things will work out.

     As far as the farm goes it has been funny kind of things that have come about. For instance on the coldest of days my chickens have been laying eggs like it is no bodies business. I even have broody chickens, not just one but a few. They are sitting on eggs. Mind you it is 30 degrees out there too. I guess they have plans of their own. Our pigs are all growing fat and no more escapes can be reported at this time, which is good for those of us who have to chase them when they do. The goats were wormed the other day and boy are they woolly, fat and sassy.  We had fire wood delivered to hopefully last the rest of the winter. There isn’t much left of the old tree that came down during the hurricane. The man that came with the wood said he would cut down that big old oak (that has been plaguing me for all these years) for $500 and he would take it in payments. Now that is the best news of last year!

     Since I have been back at it with my annual asthmatic bronchitis bout and the flu and cold weather had wrecked any of the plans for the house, I have put my energy into crocheting. This is my favorite pass time during the winter months. I have made blankets, hats, several different scarfs, and shawls since I have been on my school break. This to me is a mindless way to keep from going crazy. I have even learned some new stitches. I have also painted a few things. I do have a set of art pencils coming in the mail and will get back to drawing too. I can say too I love my new office space.

     All in all I guess nothing ready bad has come about in the past year, yet nothing good has got me too excited either. No weddings, no births, no deaths, just a year. One to say I have aged one more and I am still alive. I hope whatever things are in the future are good and not too much bad may come. Thankful for all I have and cleaning out all the useless things that clutter both my home and my brain. Looking forward and not back, moving in the right direction even if it is narrow. I guess I do have a plan after all... Life.