Wow, you know it has been almost 30 years now
since my husband and I met and got married. We have been blessed with more than
we could have ever hoped for too. See my best friend Laurie made me, drug me to
meet Tom and I am so glad she was so persistent. It truly was love at first
sight. Somehow she knew that too. She would be so happy to know that we have
lasted this long and will be together forever. She passed away a few years
back.
Tom
and I have endured through many things: past relationships, adoptions, new homes,
being run out of town, Tom being thrown in jail several times, Losing custody
of a child, getting to know a child, fostering one too. We lost jobs and cars
and homes. I have been disowned and he kept me going, lost family gained
family have many grandchildren, but the best
thing we have done in our life was to make the truth our own. Jehovah our God.
We have been Jehovah’s Witness for almost 30 years as unbaptized and baptized witnesses.
We could not have endured threw all we have gone through if we didn’t have god
on our side and three cords in our marriage. Studying the bible was the best
thing we could have ever done. I just wished I had become what I am today long
before that. But I can neither change the past nor would I ever.
See
my life was more than a major hurricane. I was far from anything anyone would
really care to deal with. I had done things I should have never done like 2
abortions and I lost one child, I have affairs, tried to take my own life
several times and I had one child that never knew her real father, and three
that had their father but finally gave them up for my husband to adopt. Had two
failed marriages, I did drugs and drank too much at times, I was raped and
molested and my life was more than I could take and on top of that I was always
told I would never amount to anything.
Tom
was there to help me every step of the way. He was my strength alongside of
Jehovah. I cannot thank my dear friend Laurie enough for dragging me to meet
such a wonderful and loving man as I found in Tom. Yes I can put it out there
because I know I am so much better now than I could have been if I never opened
the door for the two sisters that came to see me weekly. Tom didn’t take long
to end his search for the true either. We got married three weeks after our
first date. We were baptized in 1994 together and we raised our children in the
truth. But now I have the pain of knowing I may lose them permanently to the
world. A mother can only pray that they will return to it before it is too
late. I have the most beautiful grandchildren and they mean more than anyone
could ever know. Surviving together can only be my icing on my cake. As for my dearest
friend Laurie, I have the hope and faith that we will soon be united when the
resurrection comes along with my children I lost all those years ago and all
our loved ones that have passed too.
I
still find myself struggling and will till this old world ends. My house is
falling apart more and more every day, I ended my job due to things I could
never agree with, my husband is disable and our parents are getting older and
need us. I sometimes lay in bed all night praying for things to change faster
than they have but what would happen if my children don’t come home and the end
comes. These are the things I think about day in and day out. I don’t care if
my house falls in around me if I don’t have my kids and grandchildren and Tom
it just seems all for nothing. But I know no matter how bad things get I have
Jehovah on my side and that is all I need to truly survive. Without him in my
live I would have, wow I may not even be here today. But I have more than I
need and I have my health and my hubby. Life is what it is and I would not
change it because I changed when I put on that new personality all those years
ago. That suits me just fine. I am thankful for all those year, through good
and bad happy and sad I know things will be just fine. Jehovah has promised me
that.
When
that time comes and I can be invited to meet all those loved ones in the time
when Jesus calls them back, there will be no more dysfunction in my world it
will all be functional and loving , never seeing the pain again. Happy are
those who call upon the name of Jehovah, for he will bring us back to that
garden of Eden and there will be no more death sickens, wars and so much more
gone forever here on earth. Rev
21:3-4
I
hope you all find peace and love in the coming year as I have. I will continue
to pray for all to join us before the last of the last days.
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